Everything you ever wanted to know about silence

This week has had many ups and downs ... im not quite sure where my head is and its shiddy.

Im back to the same problem that ive had since i was 14 .. im so sick of it and i dont want it any more.


heres a song.

I`m not who I used to be.

I am miserable ...

I want to go back to being the youthful boy who turned your way and saw something he was not looking for.

but now he lives inside, someone he does not recognise.

I remember days when all we did was talk about travelling the world and building forts and sneaking across country ...

I am lonely ...

Joe x

Poke

Wow, 2 entries in 3 days, this must be some sort of record for me!!

I had some more to my tattoo, I'm soo stoked with it, i almost have my whole forearm done now, I will put some pictures up soon i promise.


I am excited for leaving and the small things happen and it makes me question everything I'm doing ... but enough about that for one day. yes.

Today me and a few friends are going to Smokey's (I love that place) and we are going to order this !!!

Apart from HUGE ASS FOOD they do some really good meals.... soo damn tasty.
All will be accompanied by some rather fine whiskey !!!

Talking of whiskey!!!  i cant help but shout whiskey!! in the same way as Matt berry ... i do really like Matt berry - I digress but here's some Matt berry for you !!!

If you have never seen snuff box, you should check it out ... i cant stand rich fulcher but every Matt berry scene is amazing!

Anyway, Ill leave you with a song by  Frightened Rabbit today, its called Poke.

I relate a lot to this song these days.

Enjoy 

Let Her Go ...

Hey,

Things are getting awful real .... chances are this time next month ill be living in the southern hemisphere so far away,  I`m starting to have a few doubts but for all the wrong reasons and im even trying to sort out a backup plan if I don't get my visa or if (god forbid) i actually back out.

Its very very cold these days, and there's snow outside ... possibly my favourite weather conditions. Especially with my choices of music,  listening to William fitzsimmons or velveteen really makes this weather all the better.

I'm starting to find reasons to stay .... which is weird for me because I don't find myself getting attached to many things/people.

since i've had my tattoo and glasses there have been several people tell me that im `hot`  .... I don't like this,  im not used to this and I don't  believe this.  it makes me feel uncomfortable because i have always seen myself as a very ugly person and yet its something i've always wanted to hear so im not sure how to think yet, ill get back to you on that.

okay, onto real things.


I got a sleeve tattoo!!!!   I'm soo happy with it.  i would put pictures up but i want more done yet,  im booked in for tomorrow for a few hours,  exciting!

If you're into good literature then you should have a read of this

Lost, mad and drunk with awe

Its a blog by my favourite singer/English professor Keith Buckley, a very clever man.

and if you're into quirky new Zealand people have a look through this

The flying tortoise

Its a very entertaining blog by a kiwi,  it includes a lot of gypsy homes fun facts and  general good reading.


ill leave you with 1 song today in which the words mean a lot to me.

Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Same old empty feeling in your heart'Cause love comes slow and it goes so fastWell you see her when you fall asleepBut never to touch and never to keep'Cause you loved her too much and you dive too deep

'Cause you only need the light when it's burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
Only know you've been high when you're feeling low
Only hate the road when you're missing home
Only know you love her when you let her go
And you let her go